A reason not to fail.

 I’ve tried and I’ve tried to find my purpose;

I thought it to be a grand endeavor.

I thought I held the gift of destiny:

The kind that is remembered forever.

I thought my life was to be one of opportunity,

Full of doors leading me on.

Gateways to joy and happiness,

But instead I’ve sown a trail of love forgone.

With every day that passes,

I wonder more and more.

If maybe my whole purpose

Is to simply shut the door.

Maybe my destiny is to change those around me;

To change the ones who love me.

To die and fade away,

Until I am nothing more than a memory.

A memory to urge them on,

A cautionary tale.

A fate to warn themselves against,

A reason not to fail.

Even if I tear apart their lives,

Burning them to the ground,

They would have the strength to build them up again,

Planting seeds within the ground.

Like a wildfire sears away the green within,

Purely to clear space for better life,

Is my purpose to do the same?

To force change by causing strife?

Perhaps one day, when I’ve exhausted everything else,

I’ll accept that it is my destiny to die.

For another lie is blooming on my tongue,

And my blood-soaked hands have yet to dry.

At the point where the shadows fade

 

The night is a butterfly

With such fragile wings

Like the hours

Thread with moon strands

And sewn with shadows

Colored with blackberry juice

This flows from his mouth.

Feathered

flying darkness

Unfolding his untold poetry

On the verge of eternal transience

This transforms it into a day.

Sounds of silence

Sounds of silence

It is heard amid the noise.

Wiser than any word

They export its expansive form

Deserted and unanimous voice

Shadow on white folding

As far as the eye is concerned

A mantle of liquid light

It moves below the visible

Like an iceberg or an air.

The still blue waters

 Do you know me now?

When I let you fall

Do you know yourself?

When you’re going down

Do you know enough?

When you hit the ground

Do you feel the pain?

When you’re coming round

So what if you can’t stand it and you’re left in the dark

I simply don’t see you

Like you don’t exist at all

'cause, there's something wrong with you

There's something wrong with you

In this desolation

One day you will see

The still blue waters

So let it be

Intrigue and treason

Treachery and hate

Confusion blossoms

In the darkest place

How obvious are your motives

How simple are your thrives

All these fears and emotions

Lie hollow in your lies

Do you know me now?

When I let you fall

Do you feel the pain?

When you hit the ground

So what if you can’t stand it and you’re left out in the cold

All ties are broken

So I simply don’t care at all

'cause, there's something wrong with you

There's something wrong with you

Were nothing more than fantasy

 I, I used to be so sure

I, I used to be so pure

I cannot explain

I get lost in the pain

In the meaning there's a mystery

That's hidden and locked

That's the paradox

You'll never know until it's too late

I, I've seen it all before

I, I wanted so much more

The things I was sure

Were perfect and pure

Were nothing more than fantasy

So hidden inside

Something so unkind

You'll never know until it's too late

I'm going to the open sea and I'm going t say goodbye to me 

Life is waiting for us to enjoy it.

 Set a course, through sand and storm.

Never fearful, and always hopeful.

Life is waiting for us to enjoy it.